Same Old, Same Old

Not many words in me today.
Just many feelings.
Hard to express
Inexpressible

try anyhow

Ache, lonely, yearning, emptiness, sad, tired, same old same old
over and
over and
over again.

How many YEARS of

no exercise
no eat well
no drink enough water
no meditate
no move forward.

I'M SICK OF IT!
So frustrated with self!

ENOUGH!
But how to change?
HOW?